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| Today was the first time i've gotten a really bad headache from how busy I've been. I've had headaches before that were caused by stress, but this one actually prevented me from doing things...so now I'm backed up.
I have WAY too many things to do. I know some people might say, "That's growing up". Maybe it is...but i REALLY REALLY have too many things to do. It's where every day has to be planned out strategically in order for me to get everything finished, and if one thing takes longer than the time i set aside for it, then everything is pushed back. I only ate once today because that's all the time i had for it. I should probably eat now...but I need to sleep soon so that I can start my day early and get back some of the time i wasted from not finishing all I had to do today. *sigh*
And I usually proof-read my posts, but because I never had time to write this in the first place, I can't...
Week be over please!
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| Mondays: School 11:00AM - 2:00PM
Intern 3:00PM - Whenever
Tuesdays: School 10:00AM - 4:20PM
Dance Practice 4:30PM - Whenever
Wednesdays: (See Mondays)
Thursday: (See Tuesdays)
Campus Based Stuff
Fridays: Teach Early in the morning till early afternoon
Intern 3:00PM - Whenever
Saturdays: FUN DAY!
Sundays: Homework day
And I need to fit in the gym somewhere between all of that...at least 3 times a week... | | |
| Dang man...it's time for me to grow up, on the REAL real. I got my papers for internships during the summer, and i really need to find one so that i can have a job by the end of the year...or at least when i graduate. This transition period in life is real hard for a lot of people to accept, especially me, because having to let go of your youth and getting a good grip on adulthood is not something i ever looked forward to. When i look back at my pre-adult life now...staying out late, sleeping in till the afternoon, having less responsibilities...i reminisce and know that those were the good times and i want them to continue. But i've realized that that's the problem. I continue to look BACK and strive to relive moments from my youth, when what i need to be doing is look FORWARD. And this is difficult for me...
I've never really had a mentor or someone of "role-model" status in my life to sit down and talk to me about this. I've never heard stories of people who went through this same phase in their life. Growing up, I was given many little nuggets of knowledge, from things like "Look both ways before you cross the street" and "Stop, drop and roll" to, "Say 'No' to drugs" and "Sex is something sacred and special". For some reason I found all these rules, morals, and more, pretty simple to live by. But no one ever prepared me for growing up. One day, I just realized that I'm in a transition phase in my life, and now i gotta ad lib this shit.
But i'll be alright. God's on my side. Though this was something I didn't expect, I've always ALWAYS genuinely believed that God has something great for me in my future.
But for now...I gotta slip on my boxer-briefs and man the "F" up. | | |
| This past month or so I feel like i've regain some of the confidence I lost over the past year+. I know that there's still a lot of room for improvement, but I'm feeling a lot of the same feelings I used to feel back when I wasn't scared of talking to girls. And the confidence doesn't just apply to girls, I'm more confident about my life in general. Maybe it's just me accepting that I'm growing up...or maybe it's because I'm a bum and I don't wanna feel like that anymore. Whatever it is, it feels good.
A lot of the times, people are so focused on one thing that they forget about a lot of other things that are around them. For instance, a friend of mine was so set on skating one night that he remembered to bring his skateboard, wear his skating shoes, and bring a towel to wipe his sweat...but later that night/morning he realized that he left his keys in someone else's car. Sometimes you forget things that are really important to you because you're blinded by the thought of something else. I feel that this can be applied to people too (As in "Sometimes you forget PEOPLE that are really important ect...).
||My Networking Theory||
I've been networking more these past few weeks, and I never really realized how fun and important it is to network. Typically, when a normal person is exposed to a new environment with new people, they tend to be much more timid in order to kinda "feel out" the atmosphere of the setting. And usually, if it's a BIG environment with LOTS of new people, a normal person will tend to gravitate towards their comfort zone, or only hang out with the people they know. I guess I just learned that if you network with a bunch of small groups that make up the "big environment" and meet all these "new people", than you skip the entire "shy phase" because now you know everyone, so everywhere is your comfort zone. (Lots of "quotations" in this paragraph...)
||End Theory||
Nice guys finish last, and I consider myself a nice guy. I'd say that I'm someone that really doesn't get mad easily, but I kinda got pissed off this past week because the "Nice guys finish last" statement kept beating in my head like a damn tribal drum. I'm probably using that saying out of context, so a good friend put my situation into better words, "Girls will use you, then lose you." Anyways, the vague anecdote in a nutshell goes like this, I did a really big favor for an old (fairly attractive female) friend. To show her gratitude, she not once, not twice, but THREE times emphasizes how she wants us to hang out later that night. She said she'd hollar when she's ready. Anywho, I'm sure you can piece together the rest. No call, no text, nothing written on the facebook wall (pfff). Just kinda frustrates me that people still do that grimey shit...wack.
Clean transposition of my thoughts to text --- check! A rare occasion indeed! Sorry for the length, I haven't written (wrote?) like this in a minute, but I like it. Anyways, back to business. Street Fighter 4 anyone?
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| I didn't get old on purpose, it just happened.
If you're lucky, it could happen to you!
I'm so sick of getting older. Once you're over 21, you can just stop counting, cuz it doesn't matter anymore. Today I have to renew my driver's license because it's EXPIRED. Expired like my youth...i hate getting older. But at the same time, it's cool to start understanding the things your parents always told you when you were younger.
"You'll understand once you get older."
"In a few years, you wont be sitting on my lap anymore."
"Finish school before you have a boyfriend/girlfriend."
"Don't eat yellow snow."
"It's not normal to wear your school clothes to bed so that you don't have to get dressed in the morning."
...i think that last one only applies to me...it STILL doesn't make sense to me to this day. If you go to bed with the clothes that you're going to wear the next day, you can skip having to get dressed when you wake up. Screw wrinkles...who are you trying to impress...
I digress...
I'm sure i've talked about this before. Being a "young adult" is having the best of both worlds because you have the knowledge of an adult, but the youth of a teenager. You're just getting out of your teens and you still know how it feels to be one, but at the same time, you have the mind set of a grown-up. Me on the other hand...im still trying to hold on to the teen years...but slowly transitioning into adulthood. VERY SLOWLY. Which is good when I think of it subjectively. AHH!
I don't wanna grow up.
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